The severity of it comes and goes. Sometimes, if you don't think about why its happening, some of the things he says are funny. Other times I feel bad because he knows hes confused and he gets very frustrated.
The last couple of weeks have been about keeping him comfortable.
Hospice says to be ready because it could be any time. Some times I just dont see how thats possible.. Other times Im scared it could happen at any moment.
One thing I know, without a doubt.. He is the strongest, kindest person I know. Even now he worries about everyone but himself. ❤️
It took what felt like a long time to get his pain under control. Hospice said they thought it was pretty fast.
They come every 3-4 days now to check on him and his pain pump. He sleeps most of the time and gets restless off and on. Most days he eats a small amount once or twice a day. Yesterday he didnt eat anything.
We are in the car at the lake right now. I cant remember the last time he left the house.. He's exhausted and sleeping now but he is happy to be out of the house.
Side note: We are not having many visitors. He gets very anxious and tired so when we do its one at a time for about 30 mins no more than once a day. Thank you all for understanding.
Just know we are all here for you Margaret, and Jan as well. I know it's hard, and wishing for you the strength you need to get through this. Sending hugs, love, and support. May God Bless you all. Bill, Connie, and the group.
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ReplyDeleteI am so glad you & Brian were able to get out to the lake. It is so very hard to see a loved one fighting for their life. I was there when I lost my sister to pancreatic cancer 10 years ago. It is a awful cancer. I hope Brian's last days are filled with peace & surrounded by the people he loves. Your in my continued thoughts and prayers!
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